We put our Camilla to sleep this morning.
We were up with her
last night til the early hours of the morning. She was tired, we took
turns petting her, comforting her. Even though she was sick and
exhausted, she was purring, content with our love and attention.
She
woke up this morning even more tired. We took her to the clinic for her
scheduled surgery. We didn't want to put her in the carrier anymore so
David drove while I held her on my lap, wrapped up in my pale pink
bathrobe. Camilla loved our bathrobes, every time she found one on the
floor or the bed, she would climb into it and sleep. So I've been
wrapping her in my bathrobe to take to the vet. We thought it would
give her some comfort.
Her vet wasn't happy when she saw her.
Even less happy when she found her temperature below normal. I thought
it was good that she didn't have a fever, but the doctor said that it
was a sign that her body had given up the fight. Evidently the second
antibiotic we put her on to prepare for the surgery didn't work. Her
body was failing.
She told us that there was a very slim chance
that Camilla would make it through the surgery. It's a critical surgery
even for otherwise healthy cats, and Camilla's body was failing. Yet
without the surgery she wouldn't survive. We've run out of options to
fix her medically, as she was no longer responding to antibiotics.
We decided not to put her through the trauma of surgery. She's been through enough already in the past week alone.
The
procedure at that clinic is to give her something to go to sleep, and
then after that the doctor will take care of the euthanasia. We stayed
with her after the doctor gave her the first injection, petting her.
She was purring softly, still wrapped up in my bathrobe. She was very
weak, but she was still our Camilla for a time. I scratched her nose,
she liked it. David rubbed her ears, she loved that. Every time we
called her name, even when her eyes were closed, seemingly asleep, her
ears perked up.
We stayed with her until she was completely
asleep, when her ears didn't perk up anymore when we called her name.
We left her in the care of her vet, who would do the surgery anyway to
learn what she could in order to save other cats with the same
problems.
Camilla was sleeping peacefully when we said our goodbyes, embraced in the softness of my pink bathrobe.
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